Well, I hear that you have been travelling
with a friend in an open-topped car,
and you revealed to him all your secrets
and you showed him your operation scar.
You painted his name on your mirror
with a lipstick glossy and red,
and you posed for imaginary photos
in the warm nest of your unmade bed..
He sent you a handful of spidery poems
that you captured with pins on your wall,
I read them when you were sleeping
and they seemed to make no sense at all.
Yet you recite them when you are bathing,
trailing your sharp nails over your thighs,
and you emerge mysterious and glowing
with a wild, vacant look in your eyes.
There is more to this than just attraction
or some strange late night trick of the light,
and you shouldn’t be reading his memoirs
in a dress that is so transparent and white.
And I fear that you’ve sensed a religion
in the casual, brave cut of his coat,
as you kneel so sublime at his alter
clasping tight all the letters he wrote.
Now I hear you’ve constructed a bonfire
from the things your sweet mother knew best,
and that you comfort his wide-eyed supporters
who sleep with their hands on your breasts.
But you never once give them the shelter
they crave when the light has grown dim,
and while you suffer the press of their bodies
you save all your mystery for him.
I miss you when the round moon is sailing,
I feel your caress in the turn of the tide.
it is as constant as the ache in my shoulders,
It is the sharp stabbing pain of your knife.
And oh, how I hunger for you to be near me,
your peeled clothes like a sea at your feet,
your pale skin tasting of salt and seaweed.
I’m a slave to your scent and your heat.
But if I plead with him to release you,
with just a snap of his finger and thumb
will you forget his smooth benediction,
or the velvet magic of his silver tongue?
I apologise to regular readers who have read this often – but it has been a year since the last posting. This is one of favourite my ‘performance’ poems. In fact it might even be one of the poems I am most proud of having written. And it was written many years ago. It started out as a song but I struggled to develop a chorus. As I said, I have posted it a number of times before when this blog was even less popular than it is now. It tells a story that was inspired by (my) real life events. Because it is penned in the first person, the reader/listener tends to think that the narrator is writing about himself. Actually I was the writer of the ‘handful of spidery poems’.
Do listen to the audio – it was a poem that is meant to be read aloud.
© the author writing as Romantic Dominant
Photography by Ines Rehberg. Model is Megan Szczypka. I chose this photo because she is not unlike the female subject of the poem