Just Once

16 Jan


Some pretend.

They deny it. They convince themselves that they are content. That they have all they need. That they do not want for more. That there are no dark desires, no moments of wildness, no wish to be someone different, or to do something different.

Some don’t pretend.

They know it. But they keep it from themselves. They bury it. Ignore it. Hold it back. They find fantasies in other people’s lives rather than enjoy them in their own. They think there is always time. Some day. Some other life. They never let themselves go. They will miss it as it sails past.

I have never met anyone who does not, openly or secretly, desire a different path. Even if it is only fleeting. One breathtakingly differently page in a whole book of life.

One soaring, beautiful, glorious flight.

We all wish for release.

Just once.



© the author writing as Romantic Dominant

Photo stolen from Natassia


Posted by on January 16, 2014 in Still Life


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46 responses to “Just Once

  1. J. Jane MacKinna

    January 16, 2014 at 11:11 pm

    Beautiful. I’m blessed to be among the ones who’ve lived out my fantasies. I feel for those who keep them closeted.


  2. lunargirl

    January 16, 2014 at 11:13 pm

    It is good that some are allowed a chance to realize the dream.

    Likewise, it is so very sad that many of us are not afforded the opportunity.



    • Romantic Dominant

      January 17, 2014 at 9:58 am

      It is true. The desire may be there, but the opportunity may not
      Good to see you.


  3. Desiree G

    January 16, 2014 at 11:39 pm

    Yes, I am still seeking the sweet release of who I really am …..


  4. bcrcrider

    January 16, 2014 at 11:46 pm

    Lose Control – Evanescence
    I’m So Excited – Pink


    • Romantic Dominant

      January 17, 2014 at 10:02 am

      Not particularly a Pink fan, though that song (originally Pointer Sisters) is good.
      I adore Evanescence – talented Amy Lee, and love that track.


  5. stillmrsslocum

    January 17, 2014 at 12:24 am

    I am living what I dreamed of many years ago…and much more. It’s all down to trusting Papabear and accepting my own real self. I wish the same for everyone. It is possible.


  6. poetic1justice3

    January 17, 2014 at 12:25 am

    They are some of us who chose the path of living the life we wanted, yet we keep it under cover as most people cannot understand, and label us as being deviant, unfitting in their fabricated society. :Pretending is fooling yourself, when you finally want to realise your dream, most of the time it is too late.


  7. John Vincent

    January 17, 2014 at 2:11 am

    Reblogged this on House of Words.


  8. b.l. ronan

    January 17, 2014 at 2:47 am

    thought provoking and eloquently expressed, as always. x


  9. cjriordan

    January 17, 2014 at 3:45 am

    I have missed the sublime velvet of your words. 🙂


  10. newsubmissivestranger

    January 17, 2014 at 3:59 am

    Lovely and thought-provoking. I hid those longings for many years. I am treasure now to embrace them.


  11. lostgenny

    January 17, 2014 at 10:26 am

    Have only recently stopped hiding from my desires and it is so freeing… It’s never too late.


  12. lostgenny

    January 17, 2014 at 10:27 am

    Reblogged this on Lost Genny.


  13. vishalbheeroo

    January 17, 2014 at 10:45 am

    We all have desires and suppressing them is the biggest human tragedy:)


  14. genuinesubgirl

    January 17, 2014 at 2:01 pm

    I so needed this today, at this time, to remind myself of what I’ve so long done to myself. And that is ending for me. Not that getting there isn’t painful as hell for me (and those I love), but so necessary for my soul. Thank you for sharing this!


    • Romantic Dominant

      January 18, 2014 at 10:29 am

      be brave. I hope everything works out well and you find joy


      • genuinesubgirl

        January 19, 2014 at 5:05 pm

        Thank you – I’m trying! I’ve decided I’m a cowardly lion, but trying to find my inner fierce lioness


  15. littlekeiko

    January 17, 2014 at 7:31 pm

    If you pretend or bury it, how can you be truly happy? If you had one glorious flight and know what you can have, why wouldn’t you want it all the time? I feel blessed to have somebody that understands my desires and can make me fly. Beautifully written, btw 🙂


  16. The Visible Woman

    January 17, 2014 at 10:49 pm

    Your words spoke so many truths to me – I am making my bid for freedom and soon will be able to live the life I choose, free from old restraints….


  17. redklwr2006

    January 19, 2014 at 1:10 pm

    I have always been one that goes for it and that at times has lead me to the edge but oh to take flight from there is spectacular!


  18. lyriquediscorde

    January 21, 2014 at 9:00 pm

    She thinks she has had a plethora of experiences, enough to fill pages with, to write stories about. She thinks she is more worldly than she is. She fools herself into thinking that right now safety wins out, routine, predictability, because the last time she let herself be free and open she suffered tremendous loss. She thinks the safety net is temporary so that makes it bearable, acceptable, enough to settle into. But, time is fleeting, a thief really, and the tick-tick-ticking keeps her awake at night.

    She thinks she made a mistake once saying no.

    Inspiring words. I feel awe-struck and shaken by them. To say I relate, well, indeed.

    Your writing is amazing.


    • Romantic Dominant

      January 22, 2014 at 7:14 am

      Thank you for your kind compliment. We all carry our regrets. And yet it is sometimes what we don’t do that crafts is much as what we do.
      Time marches on. We must be bold but seldom reckless.


      • lyriquediscorde

        January 22, 2014 at 4:56 pm

        Smiles back.

        Yes, there is a gossamer fine line between bold and reckless that is tempting to dance upon, is it not? I do have regrets, and yes, we all do. This just spoke directly to my core, and to those regrets.

        Time does march on.

        You are inspiring. Always.


  19. the Master's Slave

    January 27, 2014 at 10:45 pm

    I think once you love someone, you should love them with all of your heart and never give up. Believe and trust with all your heart no matter what. Lovely write. xo


  20. phatyma

    January 28, 2014 at 5:46 am

    dont i know it…


  21. hisalone2016

    September 8, 2016 at 10:22 pm



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