She says that she is done.
I believe her. She has a good heart.
I have taken down yesterday’s post. It was a knee jerk reaction to a perceived threat which I am no longer sure she was making. To everyone who commented privately and publicly, I thank you for your kind words. I don’t deserve them, But they are appreciated, every one.
It has made me reflect on myself and my actions. I truly have no wish to hurt anyone or deceive anyone. On-line relationships are real relationships – they are between real people. The lack of physical proximity does not mean that there is a lack of passion. Or that the suffering is any less when something is lost. Sometimes the distance makes the yearning, and the isolation even greater.
I try to be as honest as I can possibly be in all things – the fact that I am continually lying to the woman with whom I share my life and who is my best friend is enough stain on the soul of any man. Yet I resolve to try harder. I will be even more candid in my dealings with those with whom I come in contact. I will try to make it more clear, if there is a subject of a post, precisely to whom it is directed. (I know what it is like to read oneself into the posts of others when actually you were the last thing on their mind when they wrote it.)
And to anyone I have treated with less kindness, less candour, less respect and less feeling than I should have done, then I apologise.
I am truly sorry.
Art by Anne Magill